My Evolution

My Evolution




I have built up these walls

These barriers

In an attempt to

Protect

And conceal

What is sacred…ME.



I have created these doubts

These fears

Given them names

And deemed them truth

All in the attempt

To protect

Blissful ignorance and denial.



I have silenced

That inner voice

That gut feeling

That nagging sensation that keeps

Tearing at the very fabric of my entire DNA..



And..



I



Am tired.





I am so FUCKIN' tired!

Forgive the profane

“oh behave” some say

But im so damn tired of fooling myself…



So tired of abusing

My health

And wealth

And sanity!



All for the sake of “normalcy” and comfort

but at this point,

It no longer feels worth it!



And when I say it no longer feels worth it,

I will not spend another moment

I will not take another breathe

Until MY wounds

And MY heart

Has been healed to the depths of my soul!



At one point I was whole



But after getting caught up in "survival mode"

Along the way I somehow

Lost parts of I.



And so,



I



lay



prostrate



In great wait



No debating it is so clear to me now.



Never too late to start again

I transcend



I let go



I forgive

go withIN!



No more fears.

I trust ME now

more

than

ever.



And I anticipate

With no resistance



MY EVOLUTION.



Copyright Helen Marie May 2010



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