I'm Ready...

Good morning LOVE!
Its been a while
Actually,
I can admit
That I don’t think we’ve ever formally met.

I mean
I have spent years,
Claiming to know you
like one of those facebook buddies
I chat with occasionally,
But never in real life..

Yea
that’s been you and I’s connection
But today…
today we meet in person.
Today I introduce myself
As Helen Marie
THIS is me!
Naked and bare
With no make-up
And picked out hair
I’ll admit
I’m naïve
And gullible when it comes to knowing who you are
So I ask…
Please be patient
And please OVERstand
My ignorance.
I hope u empathize with me
cause cee
I
Just
Want
To know
What real love is…
I just want to feel
Like a kid in a candy shop
No budget
No limits
im all in
this time…
if I could,
I’d buy back time
and remind myself
that you have ALWAYS existed
but TODAY I am lifted
off my feet
defying gravity
I leap
Off the mountain
Into the sea
Even tho
I can’t swim and I’m
so
scared
of YOU!
But truth is…
I’m more scared of not knowing
who
you
ARE.
So…
I
Step out on the water
Look forward
And take ur hand
I
Understand
That maybe
This love thing might not go exactly
As I’ve planned but…
I’m open,
Faith steady…
Feet grounded
I’m ready…
For LOVE.


Copywrite February 15, 2010

Forsaken Queendom

I neglect my Crown sometimes…
And bow down
To trivialities,
And nonsense
I need not
even consider!
I mean,
I aim straight
And push hard
My heart’s guard sometimes however,
gets weak.
and fear creeps
I'm wise but there have been times..
I've been SO not the queen
I was BORN to BEcome...
Yes I’ve been dumb
Blind and ignorant
Spent time repentin
but finally I'm getting closer



(the sin in life, Is to know to do better, but not do it)
See I KNEW it
I’ve known it
I ve proved it and showed it to many
But sometimes…
I
myself
have lost INsight
 my soul fights
The inner truth
That higher me
Telling me
“ Don’t believe the fallacies, block out all the pharasees.."
I hear that constantly,
steadingly
as a
reminder
I’m chosen
curse
broken
still toting
more love to give…

 neglect my crown
And bow down
To trivialities
And nonsense that royalty
Should not even consider!
But…
faith it keeps growing
my peace
rests in knowing
my birthright
and lineage
Can never be broken
So I wait
For the day
And aim to maintain
My sovereignty
Its calling me
I hear it….

I Stay Awake!

This night is different…

For some reason

Sleep seems like the enemy

Cause if I sleep

I just might miss out on ceeing the light.

And so I fight thru

Fatigue

And routine bedtimes

I resist my mind’s desire

To just

stay

sleeping…

Sleeping

When my spirit says

Stay awake

STAY AWAKE!!!

Even when the illusion

Seems so real u can taste it

Eat it

Shit it

I can FEEL it

But yet deep down I know

It’s all a dream

And so I SCREAM at the top of my lungs

Telepathically.

Helen REMEMBER WHO U ARE!!

Remember what is truth!

Truth is…

This matrix called “The American Dream”

Is the greatest convincer

Pretender

Straight up blasphemer!

It has most

Sleep walking

Waiting for a hero

They don’t know

All they literally have to do

Is just WAKE UP!!!

So for them

I STAY UP!

I’ve got my chai tea

My honey

Pen and this paper

Im safer awake then asleep

Cause my eye is focused!

On re-writing their vision

I want to envision

The vision

That will cause blind eyes to see.

I want to write the love story

That makes deaf ears believe.

I want to sing a song that transcends

Intelligence

So that even the “dumb” can comprehend

Every note!

I

just

want

to

STAY AWAKE!

To be honest

I don’t ever want to sleep again!

I am quite fine with manipulating time and space

Energized off of Love

And TRUTH and WISDOM

Sleeping just has become

So DAMN overrated!

CEE I hate it!

Sleepers won’t understand this

They’ll label me insane

But reality BE with the divine ones

they too think and move the same as I.

I

kiss the sky

Reflecting the sun

Stay stargazing

Til kingdom come

And I’m awake

This all is real

No

I’m not dreaming!

I’m ceeing…

Tonight.