I'm Ready...

Good morning LOVE!
Its been a while
Actually,
I can admit
That I don’t think we’ve ever formally met.

I mean
I have spent years,
Claiming to know you
like one of those facebook buddies
I chat with occasionally,
But never in real life..

Yea
that’s been you and I’s connection
But today…
today we meet in person.
Today I introduce myself
As Helen Marie
THIS is me!
Naked and bare
With no make-up
And picked out hair
I’ll admit
I’m naïve
And gullible when it comes to knowing who you are
So I ask…
Please be patient
And please OVERstand
My ignorance.
I hope u empathize with me
cause cee
I
Just
Want
To know
What real love is…
I just want to feel
Like a kid in a candy shop
No budget
No limits
im all in
this time…
if I could,
I’d buy back time
and remind myself
that you have ALWAYS existed
but TODAY I am lifted
off my feet
defying gravity
I leap
Off the mountain
Into the sea
Even tho
I can’t swim and I’m
so
scared
of YOU!
But truth is…
I’m more scared of not knowing
who
you
ARE.
So…
I
Step out on the water
Look forward
And take ur hand
I
Understand
That maybe
This love thing might not go exactly
As I’ve planned but…
I’m open,
Faith steady…
Feet grounded
I’m ready…
For LOVE.


Copywrite February 15, 2010

Forsaken Queendom

I neglect my Crown sometimes…
And bow down
To trivialities,
And nonsense
I need not
even consider!
I mean,
I aim straight
And push hard
My heart’s guard sometimes however,
gets weak.
and fear creeps
I'm wise but there have been times..
I've been SO not the queen
I was BORN to BEcome...
Yes I’ve been dumb
Blind and ignorant
Spent time repentin
but finally I'm getting closer



(the sin in life, Is to know to do better, but not do it)
See I KNEW it
I’ve known it
I ve proved it and showed it to many
But sometimes…
I
myself
have lost INsight
 my soul fights
The inner truth
That higher me
Telling me
“ Don’t believe the fallacies, block out all the pharasees.."
I hear that constantly,
steadingly
as a
reminder
I’m chosen
curse
broken
still toting
more love to give…

 neglect my crown
And bow down
To trivialities
And nonsense that royalty
Should not even consider!
But…
faith it keeps growing
my peace
rests in knowing
my birthright
and lineage
Can never be broken
So I wait
For the day
And aim to maintain
My sovereignty
Its calling me
I hear it….

I Stay Awake!

This night is different…

For some reason

Sleep seems like the enemy

Cause if I sleep

I just might miss out on ceeing the light.

And so I fight thru

Fatigue

And routine bedtimes

I resist my mind’s desire

To just

stay

sleeping…

Sleeping

When my spirit says

Stay awake

STAY AWAKE!!!

Even when the illusion

Seems so real u can taste it

Eat it

Shit it

I can FEEL it

But yet deep down I know

It’s all a dream

And so I SCREAM at the top of my lungs

Telepathically.

Helen REMEMBER WHO U ARE!!

Remember what is truth!

Truth is…

This matrix called “The American Dream”

Is the greatest convincer

Pretender

Straight up blasphemer!

It has most

Sleep walking

Waiting for a hero

They don’t know

All they literally have to do

Is just WAKE UP!!!

So for them

I STAY UP!

I’ve got my chai tea

My honey

Pen and this paper

Im safer awake then asleep

Cause my eye is focused!

On re-writing their vision

I want to envision

The vision

That will cause blind eyes to see.

I want to write the love story

That makes deaf ears believe.

I want to sing a song that transcends

Intelligence

So that even the “dumb” can comprehend

Every note!

I

just

want

to

STAY AWAKE!

To be honest

I don’t ever want to sleep again!

I am quite fine with manipulating time and space

Energized off of Love

And TRUTH and WISDOM

Sleeping just has become

So DAMN overrated!

CEE I hate it!

Sleepers won’t understand this

They’ll label me insane

But reality BE with the divine ones

they too think and move the same as I.

I

kiss the sky

Reflecting the sun

Stay stargazing

Til kingdom come

And I’m awake

This all is real

No

I’m not dreaming!

I’m ceeing…

Tonight.

I Write...

They say don’t cast your pearls to swine…
So I
Have decided to now
Be more choosy with these lyrics!
It
Is
My sincerest desire,
To ignite the fire within.
To light YOUR torch
That will pave YOUR way
I say YOU
Because I understand
The U- IN-I-verse.

See I don’t
Utilize thoughts of fear
I live abundant!
I expect the best!
Every test
Inches me closer,
To more blessings.
I press…
And I press…
My tongue
Against
Teeth
To speak LIFE.
I like Christ
Speak to the dead
And I say LIVE!
The enemy is fear
And ignorance’ his kid but…
Like I said…
They say
Don’t cast your pearls to swine
So I am in search
In constant awakening
Mistaken in part
By those who don’t even know themselves!
My wealth of knowledge,
Wisdom,
And Understanding,
Surpasses college
And “book smart”
Art I not the most beautiful of creation?
The name Queen’s BEEN taken!
Im makin it my duty
My purpose
My mission
To mention
How deep this thing called life
Can really get!
I set out
To seek truth
And in return
Gain peace of mind
I knocked,
The door swung open
And the love I receive
It transcends time
And space
I place all responsibility
Of knowledge heard
On the ears of those
Who hear these words
Cuz like I said
They say don’t cast pearls to swine
And so if ur reading this
I hope
that you’re Divine
or at least open
to the light
I think
I see
I write for US.

Copywrite January 2010

We BE....

You be ADAM
I be EVE
The LOVE we share’s
Theology.
The WORD’s our bond
These thoughts are SEEDS
Walk side by side
And we agree.

The story starts,
When we AWAKEN.
Realize the truth,
And what was taken.
DISSECT our roots,
This love we’re makin,
Is blasphemy,
To the forsaken.

The only SIN,
Is FEAR itself.
And ignorance,
Seek wisdom’s wealth.
Fear kept us farther,
From the LIGHT.
For far to long,
Now we shine bright.

Bright like the SUN
Illuminating
Into the night
Those devils shaking.
At the thought
Of us connecting
Cuz they don’t want
Us RECOLLECTING.

I was
created
Then set free
Came down a EARTH
To birth and BE.
See most forgot
Along the way
That they are GODS
Formed out of clay

This VESSEL is
Just temporary
Cuz after this
There’s more to
Process…
Other LEVELS
To explore
These false IDOLS
Are simply nonsense.

So peep the SIGNS
connect the dots
do the MATH
for get THEE not
love’s never blind
when it is true
you’re part of me
and I of YOU.

I be EVE
And u be ADAM
Making portraits
With our TONGUE.
Its our MISSION,
To be teachers
SEEK
The HUNGRY
old and young.

Give them KNOWLEDGE
Kick the truth
Life’s a stage
I’m in the booth..
Laying down
inspired “KNOWINGS”
So the seeds in me keep growing.
The moral of
This rhyming story
Will live for ever
Steady showing…
In the beginning was the WORD
Never will
The WORD stop going

Peace~
Helen Marie copywrite Jan 2010

X-tales

Usually
its much easier
to get me wrapped around your finger...
get me lost
and deep in love with u
that i,
can not think clearly.
usually
u come back
and im waiting
willing and ready
to be your lady
but tonight
i choose to keep both eyes open
the old me is gone
no more
naive hoping
im open
but still my heart is hidden
cant be broken
gullible moves
forbidden
love wont be blind.
lets let this time
show me
if i can love u
again.